Lameness, Shawty!

Captivation! That word of so many things.. Captivated by life is what I am now. Whether or not its a good captivation, I have not decided. I'm being held captive by both things I love and things I hate. But both types are part of life, and both parts are needed to keep the balance of humanity.
Captivated by stresses, captivated by motivation, captivated by beautiful things that surround me everyday. I'm just captivated by life!
I know this is a short post...but I just thought I'd share a little of the thoughts that are adding to the hectic craziness that is my life currently. :)

Time to Release This Silly Increase..

Ohh the increase...the increase of affection, love, emotion, hatred...ohh the increase of all the same. Once it hits me, I can't seem to stop. I feel so much...and so many times I fail to put it into words. I know the thoughts of the heart of me are meant to be written out...and yet I have ceased to allow myself to be transparent. The entire purpose of the collision of my fingertips and this dear keyboard is to allow the flow of my life inside to be released. Slowly, slowly, I've let go of that fact. I've begun to think about readers and opinions; I've cared less about what I feel and experience, and more about what you think of it... That's not who I am. I was never one who was meant to be bound by the opinions of others...and yet my nerves have overtaken me to the point of complete blockage. Silly childlike ways of mine...you were supposed to leave when I became this year older. Perhaps, maybe, the opposite has occured? I refuse to believe it, even if I know it's true. Who I am meant to be and what words were meant to be typed by my hand does not matter to the reader of this post...neither should it matter to you, in my mind. And yet, it does. Well, no more of that, I say. No more of that. I should and shall speak freely and liberally in my own private haven I have created in my dear blog. And this reason is why I have now returned. The fact has become, yet again, revealed to me, that writing some sort of something is necessary for my sanity. Even if it is more of a diary at times, here is where I've chosen to create that outlet...and here it shall be for some time, I believe. Alas...the future can finally begin to be put back on paper.