The Little Mermaid!!!

I am currently watching one of Walt Disney's many masterpieces, The Little Mermaid. And it makes me happy! I plan on continuing my night after this with the Classics- Aladdin, Pocahontas, 101 Dalmations, the Lion King, Snow White, and possibly Bambi! I probably wont watch them all tonight...but, I'm determined to watch them all within the next two days! I'm learning, through tonight's experience, how peaceful and easy movies like these make me. I think it brings up childhood emotions that were attatched to the memories I have from when these movies took up half of my life. I would always watch these with my best friend Briana, or my cousin, Chase. We would get so caught up in the movies that the whole world would disappear! I remember how serioulsy we would take the scene towards the beginning of the Little Mermaid, the one where prince Eric's ship gets caught in a storm and ends up exploding. It's pretty intense! I find it somewhat comical now, but I remember the real emotional effects the scene had on us. We would get really scared, even though we knew what would happen next, and we would always yell out at the most intense parts to the point of annoying our parents. It was great..!!
Those days were so amazing...being so free to do absolutely whatever you wanted! It was incredible not having to worry about responsibilities or what other people thought. Having to only focus on having fun and using all of my energy on just that seems like something that never could have happened to me. But I have the memories! Gooosh I miss those times- eating like three neopolitan ice-cream sandwiches, then running outside to play and get all the left over stickiness covered with dirt. :] There's soooooooo maaaany memories I could write about on here, but I don't think they would fit!
I just love that I get to watch all of these movies (on VHS btw lol) and remenisce on all the wonderful times I had. There's nothing like that peaceful "childhood" feeling. :D

Ohh Teenagism.

This is a poem I found that I wrote in November of 2008!! Re-reading this I can't help but smile at the memories of what made me write this. Everything said here is still true in my life today!



I hate the snobs, the flirts, the teens.
I hate the drama, the junk....the teens.
The emotions, the horemones, the reponsibilities...I hate em all.
I hate the girls, the boys, the teens whose mottos are "I know it all."
Those people who care only for number one, I hate em.
And I hate those bullies who mess with others, just for fun.
But then again...I've said it more than twice,
I hate the teens, I hate it all,
Only because I am a teen.
And I'm pretty sure all teens "sometimes" hate it all.
I posses the immaturity of those I say I "hate".
And...I know I'm just like that too.
Because it's natural...it's my teenage fate.
We all go through it, the junk, the drama.....the teens,
The snobbery, the flirting, the whole teenager thing.
I've caused my share of drama and junk...I AM a teen.
The emotions and horemones...oh boy I've got those too.
I admit, I have before, thought of only number one.
And yeah...I guess I have been a bully, that's messed with others just for fun.
So yes...I hate it all.
But in a way..I know I'm learning.
So I guess I can't hate it...
Cause it's my life....everybody goes through it all.

Sooo..... :]

So, I'm bored this evening, and for some reason, facebook isn't workinggggg!! Ahh! Life has ended as we know it...... Well...maybe not completely...I am still typing. :] Anyways! It's January! The year 2011 has just begun. I have a feeling it's going to be an intensely amazing year. I can already feel God moving things and changing stuff in my heart. I'm excited to see what he has in store. The only thing is.....I'm feeling the need to make sacrifices! *dramatic sigh* lol I know God wants me to move further in my relationship with Him. I also know that there are certain weights on my heart that are keeping me from doing just that. And It's stupid! It's just little silly things that are hindering me! Even though I know it's silly stuff, I am attatched to everything in my fleshly life. I don't want to separate from any part of it! I reeaally don't. :/ It's hard ya know! Making big changes without knowing exactly what's going to happen....It's really, really not easy. lol. But I KNOW it will be worth it. As much as I don't want to make changes in my life, I know God's got plans for me that I could never even imagine. I've expereienced His love and pure presence and I know there is only for for me to experience. AND I WANT TO! I want, with everything inside me, to get closer to God. To be with Him every day, in a completely different and unique way. As difficult as it is for my flesh to admit, the deep parts of my heart want nothing more than for my entire being to be completely consumed by God. I want to live in the moments where nothing else exists in the world, except me and Jesus. I want to be alone with Him and talk to Him, and hear the things he has to say. I just wanna be in His presence. Just to be able to sit with Him, is everything that I want out of this life. I want to know Him on a personal basis and commune with Him in a special way that nobody else knows about. I want to share secrets with God. I want Him to tell me things that other people don't know. I just want this intimate relationship with Him. I love God, and I am determined to do whatever it takes to get my flesh out of the way. I WILL be best friends with God. I will sacrifice my yucky fleshy stuff that I care for so dearly, and get closer to Jesus than I have ever been before. :] This is it! This is myyy time. ;]