Sooo..... :]

So, I'm bored this evening, and for some reason, facebook isn't workinggggg!! Ahh! Life has ended as we know it...... Well...maybe not completely...I am still typing. :] Anyways! It's January! The year 2011 has just begun. I have a feeling it's going to be an intensely amazing year. I can already feel God moving things and changing stuff in my heart. I'm excited to see what he has in store. The only thing is.....I'm feeling the need to make sacrifices! *dramatic sigh* lol I know God wants me to move further in my relationship with Him. I also know that there are certain weights on my heart that are keeping me from doing just that. And It's stupid! It's just little silly things that are hindering me! Even though I know it's silly stuff, I am attatched to everything in my fleshly life. I don't want to separate from any part of it! I reeaally don't. :/ It's hard ya know! Making big changes without knowing exactly what's going to happen....It's really, really not easy. lol. But I KNOW it will be worth it. As much as I don't want to make changes in my life, I know God's got plans for me that I could never even imagine. I've expereienced His love and pure presence and I know there is only for for me to experience. AND I WANT TO! I want, with everything inside me, to get closer to God. To be with Him every day, in a completely different and unique way. As difficult as it is for my flesh to admit, the deep parts of my heart want nothing more than for my entire being to be completely consumed by God. I want to live in the moments where nothing else exists in the world, except me and Jesus. I want to be alone with Him and talk to Him, and hear the things he has to say. I just wanna be in His presence. Just to be able to sit with Him, is everything that I want out of this life. I want to know Him on a personal basis and commune with Him in a special way that nobody else knows about. I want to share secrets with God. I want Him to tell me things that other people don't know. I just want this intimate relationship with Him. I love God, and I am determined to do whatever it takes to get my flesh out of the way. I WILL be best friends with God. I will sacrifice my yucky fleshy stuff that I care for so dearly, and get closer to Jesus than I have ever been before. :] This is it! This is myyy time. ;]