Here we go!!!!

I haven't posted in a bit...but, please, know that I've missed you dearly! There's so many things that I've wanted to write about! But me and my lack of consistency have kept me from doing so. :( I apologize to and for myself for that. Consistency's something that I've "thought" about mastering for a long while now. I'm embarassed to admit that I haven't done too much with these thoughts... It seems like every once in a great while i get this big surge of desire to develop a consistent relationship with God...but for some reason...my hyped up actions fade away, and I find myself asking why I'm in the same place I was last week...or month. Then I realize, I completely stopped trying. I let myself become satisfied...I always do that! :( I don't understand why! I know what it's like to have a strong relationship with Jesus. I know what it's like to be lost in love with Him, and not to have to worry about a single thing in the world, and just to let Him take care of everything. Yet my stupid, stupid flesh always wants to do things on its own! It makes thing soo much harder! I've tried and tried but I keep letting my flesh win. I need something solid to help me along. Something I can depend on...something to help me push myself every day to pray and read God's word. I need accountability...and I'm going to get it. :) Here we go!!!!