Strength?

There will come a time when even the people who love you the most, are not in the position to take care of you. No matter how much they care for you, there is not a single friend in this world who will be there for you in every situation. Everyone is human. It's not human nature for the people you lean on to always be strong for you. No matter how much we want to believe it...people are not superheroes.
I am embarrassed to say that I was once a person that "needed" people waaaay too much. I needed people to like me, I needed people to take care of me, and I needed to feel human love. Some individuals stand as strong pillars on their own...I wasn't one of those people. To be honest, I was pretty pathetic when it came to "being needy". I was one of those stupid emotional people that was always looking for someone to care. And every time I thought I found that one person that was strong enough to be my best friend, I was wrong. Then I would always immediately chock it up to them just not caring about me as much as I thought they should. I would always get disappointed and depressed because the someone I was using as a crutch had failed me. I now realize that there was never anything wrong with my friends. Friends are supposed to be there for each other, but we weren't created to be each other's everything. The reason I kept finding myself alone and feeling that even my friends didn't care, is because I was created to have Jesus Christ as my best friend.
All other people will someday let you down. Not because they don't care, but because they weren't the only ones created to be your friend. Jesus is the only being that can, without a doubt, be there 100% of the time, despite any circumstances. We weren't created to live as strong pillars by ourselves. Neither were we created to lean on each other for support. The only way to make it through this life sanely, is to rely on my Jesus. He is the only one who is capable of making you feel love and peace every time you need it. When I feel alone, and like no one cares, I know to pray to God for strength. I know to pray first for strength of my flesh and mind, to not look to my friends every time I need help. And I know to pray for my spirit to be strong enough to do whatever it takes to get close enough to Jesus, so he can be my Comforter. I have faith, that if I turn to God with all of my situations, I can mever be disappointed. I can be my own person...with a supporting lifeline straight to heaven. :)