The Adoration Turquoise and Direction.

Elizabeth is my name, and I love purple. Turquoise is nice too, but I'm not sure if I like it with an equal amount of adoration as I do green. Okay, so I don't adore green. I don't adore any specific color. I do like them,though. :)
What I do adore is freedom. I want constant freedom. I miss it when I feel that it's not with me. I love being freely happy! It feels as though sometimes it is difficult to stay in that acute state of perfection for more than a short period of time. We humans allow silliness to creep into our lives time and time again and it affects us in ways that make it difficult to see our true selves. We will live as a part of ourselves for sure...but, not the true part. Not the part we are supposed to be living. When you allow yourself to to be the half of you that is not true, but fleshly, it causes your emotions to range from temporary joy to eventual sadness, anger, frustration, and confusion, and it can even cause you to feel limited in some ways. Though you hate all of those effects, you desire the things that make you feel that way with every fiber in that half of your being. The half that is your mind is what is consumed by it. Considering that the mind is the thing that never stops, for most, this is not a good thing
Your heart may still be consumed by the things of God, but your mind controls so much of you! Truly, this is only because you have allowed it to. Often times, when one is in this predicament, one may fear that he is not strong enough to do otherwise. He may not believe that he holds the capability of doing what it takes to be who he is supposed to be and who he truly is. He may feel that he will never be who he is in the heart half of him. I do not regret to inform you that that is, indeed, stupid.
I have had to tell myself multiple times throughout my life that God would not put a task before me that I did not some how have the strength to handle and conquer. He would not allow a thing to come into our fleshly minds that we, through Him, do not have the capability of getting through. It's more about being willing to do it.
I think that we, as born again christians, sometimes allow our ways of thinking to be the way of a normal being. That's bad. If that is the case, we definitely need our brains fixed! We've got to get back to God's way of thinking. We need to see, feel, hear and think the way that God does. Then we wouldn't have ANY of these problems... If we only thought the thoughts He thinks, and left our own behind, we would be completely in His will all the time. It would be pretty nice... :) I do not think it's possible to give up 100% of every human thought and emotion we have. I do believe that if we pray in that direction, it will happen to the extent that God wants it to. I believe that life would be much more joyful and PERFECT if we gave ourselves to God's way of thinking. Noooowww I know how I need to pray! Thank you, Jesus. :D

My Interrupted Prayer

As I sit here, I wonder....about both nothing and everything.

Your love is what I desire.

The thing I want most to experience, is your divine fire.

I write so many essays and verses on what I feel from my Father.

And yet none of them can explain the truth of what all of this is,

To most, nothing about that fact matters.

But it does to me.

My human worth says I can't keep going on and on about the deepness of my Beloved....

But, I can.

And I shall, no matter the amount of fails from that endeavor.

He is the one above whom all the words in the world couldn't describe.

He is the one, who's supremacy just simply can't be defined.

His beauty is one that reigns victorious over all competitions of the like.

His wonder and his power can't be obtained or comprehended by a waiflike mind like mine,

No matter how hard it may try.

I wish I could tell you half of the things He's done...

I say half, but thruthfully, I can't comprehend that much of what's been created with His love.

There's just something about His incredulous wonder..

It makes a mind like mine incabable of doing anything but of it to ponder.

I truly do wish I had more words to say....
I wish I had more in my vocabulary to explain.

There really is so much more to tell about how my Savior makes me feel this way.

Though its true, I could go on for countless hours, writing of His love, His grace, His power, and His everything,

My small human life couldn't last long enough to get it all out.

So I guess ill just leave you with this one thing...

His everything is more than enough to completely change what seems to be your only thing.

The life He gives to those that give theirs to Him, won't be attempted to be described here.

See, that greatness as well, would take countless words and hours to tell.

Just know that its worth it, to be with the father.

At least it is for me...I pray every day that this also becomes your greatest desire.