Half a Tangerine and Some Rice Snacks

Uno, DOS, tres, quatro....  Shamalamma ding dong. I'm here, you're there, He's everywhere. Nothing matters! Words don't matter, sentences don't matter, what comes of me or this doesn't matter....as long as it exists. Who is here? Is anybody? Does it matter? No. all that matters is that I exist in this magnificently beautiful world. All that matters is that I see what I'm seeing and live what I'm living. As long as I bring pen to papaer, im in God's will. As long as I disregard you, and I disregard fear, everything will be okay. As long as I keep  comfortable in my own mind, nothing in this big world matters. I wanna be where you are. I wanna see what you see, how you see, and why you see it that way. I wanna live above the clouds, I wanna walk on raindrops as they wait to be dropped from the sky. I wanna lose everything, so that everything can be mine. I don't wanna be anything, I just want to truly exist. To exist where it matters...where it counts. This life if not worth living, if I have to live with limitations on my mind! If I can't be free from myself, I am prisoner to every single person in this world. If I'm not free in my mind, I am not free anywhere. There's so many details we miss every day. So many colorful molecules that surround us, creating beauty beyond description, that we never even see! We never even look at them. It's not our own fault, but, st the same time,  it is. Our lives are so limited  to our human experiences. Our brains are literally kept caged! They don't even know, so they're never striving for freedom or serenity. So many times, we think we know peace, we think we see beauty, experience serenity, and feel love. But, without freedom and depth of the.mind, we understand less of any of it than the children. Really, I envy the minds of the little ones. Such innocent freedom to think and see whatever they want. To believe in so much, and be amazed by every tiny creature God created, and to notice every detail! That's the way of them, and the way I want for me. I don't want to ever see with old eyes....wise eyes someday may be okay. But, I pray never to be done seeing anything. I want to see everything the way my God does with the true beauty he lied inside of it. Everything...everything, everyone, all of it, I want to see. Trueness, I want to see the reality for myself... All day errday! :)