The Explosion of Spring...I'm so excited. :)

Flowers won't be blooming for a while. That fact doesn't really matter, unless you're me. :) I love flowers...I can't wait for them to bloom. The beginning of this upcoming blooming season will mark the beginning of more than just the pretty, smell-goody things. When the flowers start to bloom this year, so doe a new chapter in my life. I'm graduating from high school during that time. I'll be turning eighteen. I'm growing up! The next time I see flowers, I'll be stepping into adulthood. I've never been so terrified and excited in my life! So many beautiful things are going to begin when the beauty of the thick, lush grass and the brightly colored foilage finally make it back into our lives! I'm happy. :) Like, really happy. I'm so excited for tje day when God brings back the heat and sunshine...for that day when He kicks off my life and allows me to step into bigger and greater things. It's going to be a beautiful time indeed. I'm excited for the explosion of spring....I'm excited for all the seasons after that. I know there is nothing but beauty, learning, and experiences to be had.









Though I can't wait for that season to come...I'm content with where I am now. Actually...I'll admit it, I've fallen in love with fall. :) It's partially because of the beautiful October skies, the cool weather, and the constant perfect amount of sunshine mixed with the perfect amount of wind, but mostly just because life's great right now. It's just awesome! My life really is like a huge love story...and no, it's not because of a relationship with a member of the opposite sex. :p Though friends are cool...I call my life a love story based on the romance I'm dazzled with every day by my glorious Savior and the things He's surrounded me with. Everything in this life just has an irrestistible charm about it. It's like the whole world is flirting with me...showing off for me...making me blush. :) I don't know why, but I'm even loving the sad things in life. I just feel like it's all for a greater purpose, even if it pains me. I find that to be the most brilliantly astounding thing in the world. Something in me forces me to believe that every little thing is connected...every emotion, every conflict, every sight, every person, every tree....everything you can think of is connected by my Creator. That's why I love it all...every bit of ugly and beauty. He knows it all, and He loves it all. I love Him, and He loves me. He's made my life into what I believe to be the greatest love story in the history of the world. I'm completely head over heels for all of it. :)
But woot! woot! for the future! :DDDDD hehehe

Woah, There's Stars up There too!

It's amazing how something so simple as a white ball floating in a deep sky of blue can be so beautiful that it sends someone into a state of borderline vegetableism. :) It's like you're put into a trance...a wonderful one. Such is the wonder of this life. There are so many things that are beautiful in my life. Love, relationships, friends, family, my physical surroundings- they're all so wonderful. If I were to give the time I'd like to to it all, they would easily consume me and send me into a blissful trance where I could be the happiest vegetable on the planet. :)

When I look at the sky, the moon is what I see. I like to think that one day, if the moon and the north star don't end up getting married, I'd get to be with the moon. I often feel as though I am in love with it. :) But, every once in a while, the reality of the rest of the sky hits me...and I realize that there's a whole universe of beauty above me, just waiting to consume me. I want that. I want the beautiful spiritual universe that God has created to surround me. Though it's easy to just look at the moon, love it, and let its joy consume me...I want everything God has for me. (I'm pretty sure that includes the moon, eventually...at least I hope it does.) But anyhow, my point is...I want Jesus right now. Nothing else. I want something more than surface deep. I want to be lost in the universe of His love, His grace, and simply His presence. I don't want to be focused on the beauty of the moon...I want to be taken over by everything He has, and that is all. I'm separating myself for this reason, and this reason alone. K!? Cool. :)

Oohhh Happiness. :)

So hey, yeah, hi, hows it goin? I'm all good here...just taking care of a few things and thought I'd stop by and empty my brain out on you. Lately, there's been a lot of randomness in my life. Random people, random events...I think I'm actually going to a toga party this weekend. Life's just been random. I LOVE IT! I loves my new life. Lol Sounds corny, yes, but I feel like I do have a new life! The past five months have been all terrifying, exciting, emotional, and wonderful. I don't think I've ever grown more in this short time than I have in my entire life. No seriously, you should see me...I'm huge. lol God's blessed me with such a freedom, it's beyond insane. I'm so happy! lol Again with the cheesiness....this blog's not supposed to be some "Dear Diary", girly, little place for me to post like a regular teenager...but I just can't help it! I'm so happy and excited about the things that are happening, I can't take it! God's just so stinkin' awesome! He's brought my church and family into this crazy revival and I'm just not willing to let it end. :) So much new stuff is surrounding me right now! It's like I'm on a boat going down a continuous river where nothing but learning takes place and I'm being splashed (soaked, actually) with an abundance of love, light, and power and never stopping! It's like Heaven....okay, probably not, but its a pretty nice place to be, if you ask me! I'm just learning and experiencing and digging, and becoming buried, It's exactly where I want to be. :) I feel like I'm in His will. I pray that I continue to do what it takes to be the person He wants me to be. I'm determined to do it! Because there is absolutely no greater life than the one I'm living right here and now....of this, I am sure. :)

This Is My Serious Face.

It is what it is and that's what it is. What is it? What is anything? Does it really matter what it is? What if what it is is what you want it to be? What if it isn't? Would you want what it is if what it was was more than that? What exactly is it that you want this what to be? Does it matter what you want the what to be? No. It doesn't. All that matters is that the what is what it is and that's what it is. You can't change the what of whatever it is. Or can you? What that answer is depends on what your what is. So what is it? Is it what your heart wants? Is it what's constantly on your mind? Or is it what you never think about or something that you didn't even know was a what? What is the what all about? Does it matter? Yes. Yes, it does. The what is what its all about. Once you figure out what the what is, then you know that that's really what it's all about. Then you're ready to do the hokey pokey. :)

You Smell That?

He's showing me again. His beauty, that is. There's revival that's indescribable. Its liberating and humbling at the same time. I feel power in my body but there's such a weakness in it that I can't even tell it what to do. Its like the earth is being shaken. Those marvelous things are finally happening. Those last few things that needed to be broken...just crumbled into a million pieces and were washed away by the flood that's saturating us. Old realms are being reopened and new ones are being thrown at us. Its all so beautiful....hearing the sounds...feeling their voices. The voices of the young people that are so heavily scattered in the huge building around me. How could I ever leave this place? How could I ever leave a place that is filled with so much insane wonder. How could I ever go away... I want to explore it all, but there's just so much powerful hilarity from just the two that are lost in the spirit in this room with me that I can't bring myself to get up and walk away. This is the most wonderful thing I could ever experience in my life....other than being lost in the midst myself. Dear Lord the power! I can't explain it to you. I can't even begin to! We're on the brink of something amazing....I can smell it. :)