According to dictionary.com, happiness is the quality or state of being happy. Supposedly, it is the result of possessing or attaining what one considers to be good. This is true. Good things make people happy. I just want to express my opinion of what it means to be happy. I’d like to type about the definition of true happiness according to me.
My entire life has been one of extreme emotions. I would really like to think of myself as a generally happy person…but, the truth is, I’m a psychopath. :)
I have a wide range of continuous emotions, and whichever I am focusing on is the one that identifies me. My emotions are so strong that they literally take over my mind… When I’m sad, my entire life falls apart into a huge sea of tears, and I drown in it. When I’m happy, I’m hilariously goofy, and my loud, obnoxious laugh annoyingly fills whatever space I’m occupying and about a 20 ft. radius outside of that. I literally lose myself in giggles, and sometimes get high from it. When I’m angry….oh geeze. I really scare myself and all those around me when I’m angry. My entire personality changes and all common sense disappears….I’m telling you, I’m a psychopath. :/
This being my seventh year as a teenage girl, I can tell you that I’ve been through my share of “life”. I’ve experienced every emotion imaginable, and( because of my psychoticness ) I’m sure they’ve been magnified to extents that you couldn’t understand (I’m sure we’ve all felt that way). I’ve had an over abundance of drama, confusion, ugliness, loneliness, awkwardness, and fear. I now have the confidence to admit that I’ve had some darker emotional times. Thankfully, the Joy of the Lord, and the love of family and friends have helped me through those times. Now, I’m a new person…and I love the person I know I have the ability to become! :)
Still, I know I have these insane emotions… Because I know I have those, I’ve been scared of things in life that have the ability to get me down or make me angry. I’ve always been scared of those emotions, so I would avoid all people or things that might have caused me to come in contact with conflict. But now….something’s different in my head. Bad things still happen…and I still get “depressed” sometimes. I still get angry…I still cry once in a while…but I’ve learned a lot in the past few months. I’ve learned that being happy doesn’t just have to be temporary…and it doesn’t have to be something I have to fight to have. I can have happiness, despite what may or may not go on in my life. There are going to be many things that come and go in this life…good things in life will come and make you happier than you thought possible. Then, they might leave. It’s something that’s taken YEARS for me to understand, that happiness doesn’t have to be determined by what goes on in my social life. I’ve learned that being happy is something that I have the ability of CHOOSING to be. I’m learning that I don’t have to put my whole heart into things that come in to make me happy. I’m not saying I don’t love those things and want them to keep coming…of course, we all want things and people in our lives that make us happy. I’m saying that I don’t have to have what I think I need to have to truly be happy. One day, my life is going to take off, and God will make things happen that will make me happy until the day that I die. But for now….I’m not going to stress over what goes on in life. I’ve learned, through some recent talks with Jesus, that I have the ability to be satisfied with the small things He’s created. I’m noticing and realizing more and more how much that is true. See, my mind works kind of the same way as my emotions…whatever is on my mind or in front of my eyes, usually consumes me. Since there are so many incredibly beautiful things in this life, my happiness can be made complete with just the simple thought of the word. I’ve been created with the ability to be happy. If I focus on the small, good things in life, I realize that regardless of what I do or do not have, my life is perfect. Even if I were to have no friends, no food, or no cute clothes, I could still be overjoyed just by thoughts of creation and the words that describe it. In the past, I’ve never thought about choosing to be happy…I’ve just flown with whatever emotion hit me and I’ve let it run its course. Now that I have this new knowledge, I refuse to allow that to happen. Of course bad things are going to happen to us. We’re alive, that’s just how it works. :) The ability that we have all been blessed with, to choose to be consumed with joy from the small things in life and not to focus on the “life” things in life, is a gift that I think we all need to take advantage of. We have the ability to be strong individuals. We just have to choose to be happy. I will always be happy. So…always be happy. Life is good, Dog! ;)
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