The Irony.

Have you ever noticed that those who are different want more than anything to be like everybody else? It's funny because those who easily fit into a mold usually get bored and desire to be different. It's quite ironic. Nobody in pentecost wants to be normal....but everybody wants to have friends who are just like them. We all want to "stand out" and be different....but we never want to be alone. We all want somebody to bring us happiness...we all want to feel love. But, we never trust God enough to lead us to the true love that's found in Him...because that path is lonely. I know it's easy to love God...He's amazing. But, it's a whole different story when you fall IN love with Him...and become completely consumed. That's where you find true love. That alone, is the place where you can find joy that's pure. It almost sounds cheesy...butit really is everlasting. There aren't sufficient words to describe what it really is to be lost in love with Jesus. No matter how long I typed, I could never explain toyou the deepness and the realness that lies in time spent with Him. I don't claim to be super spiritual or to know all there is about being in a relationship with Him. What I do know, is that it's worth it. It's more than just the words you hear preachers say....it's more than just what we say it is. It's real. Sometimes I think we take for granted, the stories we hear about the joys of prayer. It's a true revelation to experience deepness for yourself. When it becomes real to you...nothing will be the same. I'm tired of just listening to people talk about getting into a relationship with God. I'm tired of hearing all the lists of things you have to do to get close to Him....things like fasting, praying reading everyday. I know all these things are necessary. I feel sobad that we have to constantlyhave people pushing us for this! Why can't we just get a hold of it for ourselves and realy go after it because we want it...not just because we're told it'll benefit us. I wish we could understand for ourselves. I wish I could understand more formyself. I wish I could keep writing...I have to go. I've decided to give it all. Those words almost sound meaningless....they've been said by so many so many times, including myself. Maybe I should backspace it all so it's not jinxed....no, I don't have time. Whatever. :) Praise Cheesus.